When I joined the company, I learned many jargons, one of which is called result-driven, and it is also one of the items that will be reviewed at the end of every year during the performance review.

But unfortunately, I do not get a good feedback on this item.

 

Several weeks ago, the whole department attended  quite an exciting and challenging outward training, including an oriented match and the CS camp.

In the orienting, we are given a task, asking us to reach a selected destination. But the tasks are more than that. Besides getting to the destination, we also need to pick up at least 30 different kinds of leaves, get the signatures of more than 15 strangers and find out at least 5 local tales.

     So I still have no answer.

A friend of mine is going to leaving China to work in Dubai this Saturday, this is her choice.

We can make a very interesting comparison between choices and the TV channels, if we only have a couple of channels, people might complain that there is nothing interesting to watch, but on the other hand, when we have a good many TV channels, we probably would say I do not which one to choose.

 

It is the same with our choices about other things, sometimes, people say I wanna change, but I have no other choices; but let us think the other way around, if we have a bunch of choices, do we really how to make a choice? Or what may have to put a lot of things into consideration to make a so-called sound choice, and all these adds to the uncertainty of the choices.

 

The western saying goes like “ You can not eat and have the bread”. The Chinese philosophy tells us you have to discard something if you want to get something.  While the economists might suggest considering the cost of opportunity when making the choice.

 

This is life, a life of antinomy, a life full of uncertainty, a life which is really live instead of rehearsed, a life, in which we might cheer on a choice we have ever made or regret with a sigh of not making the right choice.

It has been almost one year since I last updated the blog.

It seems that I am so good at finding excuses of not updating it.

 

I hope this time I can stick to it and ponder more and write more.

 

 

   I stayed at Xi’an for the whole week last week to help to recruit new engineers and technicians for technical departments, so now I am writing to share with you some tips for the interview, which are just my personal perceptions: and now it is also the seasons for the graduates to look for jobs, so I hope these could be of some use.

First of all, care for some details.

The interviewee should be well-dressed, people do not have to wear expensive suits, but the interviewees are definitely supposed to be tidy and neat. This will make the interviewer feel respected;

Do not forget to say hi to the interviewer, he or she may be in an advantageous position, but he or she is just a normal person after all, So do not feel very nervous and try to be friendly, in some cases, shake hands with the interviewer after the interview.

Second, be confident.

The interviewee should embody the confidence during the interview, there are more challenges in the real life than a student with no working experience can ever imagine. So you should convince the interviewer that you are equipped with the confidence you can deal with the challenging tasks you are going to encounter.

 Third, do not brag, be honest.

During the interview, I have found that some people exaggerated about such things as their capabilities, skills, trainings etc.

But do not go too far, otherwise, if you are found to have written something false, your overall rating could be rather poor.

 

Best wishes

                                                 

 

前两天在网上瞎逛，无意中看到一个帖子，这个帖子是在问知不知道多年前一部讲在日本的留学生的纪录片《我们的留学生活》中那些主人公的现状。

这个纪录片我初中的时候就听说过，但是只是看了一点，所以就在网上重新找来看看， 也算得上是对于目前浮躁生活的一种镇定剂吧。

这个纪录片描述了一群充满理想的并为理想奋斗的人的生活的酸甜苦辣。 有人三十多岁了还在为了一个博士学位奋斗，有人很小就告别了父母在日本打工读书，有人为了不让女儿受没有文化的苦，自己在日本打几份工，送女儿去美国读书。 看了这个片子感受挺多，自己也在想象如果我也身处异乡，可否吃这种苦，可否适应这种内心的寂寥，可否可以依然坚持自己的理想

First of all, before I get started, I would like to make it clear that now my illness is almost ok, so no need to worry about, but due to the fact these days I am both busy and lazy, I have not put myself in the mode of writing something. But I do would like to share with my friends something that might be thought-provoking. That is why I still want to say something about it.

 

Maybe because I am too afraid of death or because I have never been to hospital alone, I really hate to fall ill and hate to go to hospital even if I really fall ill.

In the work we all know that we not only need to solve the problem, but we also need to surface the problem.

So to some extent illness is like the problem in the project, if you do not surface the problem, it does not mean there is no problem, on the contrary, the early you surface the problem, the easier it will be to solve the problem.

So first we should take care of ourselves and more importantly, we should be afraid of neither the problem nor the illness.

 一位年轻人即将大学毕业。他一直渴望拥有一辆跑车。于是，他跟父亲说了自己的想法。

毕业典礼临近了，年轻人期待着父亲给他一个惊喜。终于，在毕业典礼那个早晨，父亲把他叫到自己的书房，告诉他，自己是多么爱他，为有一个这么出色的儿子而感到自豪。接着，父亲递给儿子一个礼品盒。年轻人既好奇又略带失望，打开后，发现里面是一本皮革封面的书，上面刻着他的名字。年轻人生气地向父亲大声喊：“你明明知道我的愿望，却给我一本书？”他丢下书，头也不回地走了。
　　很多年以后，年轻人已事业有成。静下心来时，他开始后悔自己当年的举动。他想回去看看父亲了----从毕业那天起他就一直没有再见父亲。正准备起程时，他却收到一封电报——父亲去世了，把所有财产留给了他。
　　进入父亲的房间，他感到深深的悔恨和悲伤。他慢慢整理父亲的文件，发现了那本书——父亲送给他的礼物。他含泪打开书，一页一页地翻着。忽然，从书的背面掉出一把车钥匙，挂着的标签上写着一个汽车经销商的名字，正是出售他曾梦寐以求的跑车的那家，上面还标明了他的毕业日期及“款已付清”的字样。
　　多少次我们与幸福擦肩而过，仅仅因为我们少了一份再等等看的耐心，或者因为幸福没有按我们想象中的样子精美包装。

I was born in a doctor’s family. So it seems that since I had memory, doctors and nurses are adorable people with integrity. And far a long time, becoming a doctor has been my dream.

But I do not know since when doctors are not that respected as before.

This time, I was sick for one week, during which period I experienced equal number of responsible doctors and the bad ones.

There were 2 extreme cases of the bad doctors.

One is quite irresponsible and makes groundless diagnosis, due to the inflammation, my forehead got swollen, but what he told me was that the swollenness had nothing to do with the inflammation but something wrong with my kidney.

To be frank, my first response to his remarks was “ Oh, My God”, but my second thought was how possibly could it be like this?

But anyway, it is always better to be safer. And the only thing I lost to this extra test is money, it was not a big deal.

But the second one is far worse. I had used an antibiotics for intravenous injection for a couple of days and it worked very well, but this doctor prescribed to me some very expensive antibiotics.

This is not only a matter of money. Because this expensive antibiotics is very effective and it is often applied for some very serious conditions, and what is worse, if one patient uses this antibiotics for sometime, in the future, the common antibiotics will not work any more.

I think, as a doctor, he must know something more than the layman like me. So the ulterior motive of his deed is self-evident.

It might be unfair to ask the doctors to shoulder some social responsibilities, but it is the not high-demanding requirement that they should have the least morality.

 

Our boss Ghislain is leaving tomorrow, and we decided to buy him a present with Chinese characteristics.

Andy has made a wise choice to buy an album of stamps of the Bei Jing Olympics.

Together with this present, we also want to write some memorable words.

I was chosen to compose this, I hope these words are not that disappointing:

Dearest Ghislain  

For us, you are more a father-like friend with great wisdom than a boss with fantastic charisma.  

A word of thanks now seems to be rather powerless, but this is just what we want to say.   

With your coach and encouragement, we are now more entitled to engineers if we look back to the days when we first joined the big family of Bekaert. 

At the moment, we would like to say “see you later” rather than “good bye”. 

And we promise you an ever better performance when we meet each other next time. 

All the best wishes from the cord engineers.

 

Maybe people are prone to use subjunctive mode not to make sentences but to regret something.

Three weeks ago, I got a cyst on my forehead, I thought it was only a small pimple at the very beginning, so I did not take it seriously. And then suddenly one Monday morning, the cyst became very huge, and my forehead and the upper face got swollen red, it was really awful and terrible.

I had to hurry to the hospital to get the injections for antibiotics.

And it took one week before the swollen face got normal, and now the cyst is still there, maybe it will be another week before it can totally disappear.

So at the very beginning, I felt rather regretful, I began to blame and kind of torture myself what if I could take it more seriously, what if I could take antibiotics a little bit earlier, what if I had not eaten shrimps or fish, what if I could go to hospital earlier.

We have so many what if’s. We have so many regrets. But what we should do is to do anything that can avoid these regrets.

The old wisdom tells us that a young idler, an old beggar. Make full use of today and make tomorrow regretless!!

Yesterday, rumor arose that our manager Ghislain is going back to Belgium. It is really too astonishing to be true. But today it was proven to be true. He himself announced and confirmed this, and he will be leaving us this Friday.

We all feel very sad and disappointed at this despite that we know it might be a better choice that he can live with his family back in Belgium after 4 year’s stay in China.

 In our eyes, he is far more than a boss; he is more like a gentle and humorous scholar even though he is fantastically strictly.

It is the first time that we found that he could be so sentimental; the arranged 20-minute meeting only lasted approximately 10 minutes. He tried to avoid using such as of “leave” or “goodbye”, he tried to make jokes, but all these failed to make the meeting less sentimental. He said jokingly that he had to give a rushed end to this meeting to stop the tears rolling down. But I believe this is not a joke.

He said this is not a one-day decision, he really pondered over this for a long period, but he even doubts whether this is a right decision to make, because he is not happy and relieved as he ever thought he could be after making this decision.

This Friday, we are going to hold a farewell party for him, but we would rather like to call it a see-you-later party, we hope he can live a happier life in Belgium, and we hope he can pay a visit to us from time to time.

Bon Voyage and all the best.

Last year, during my stay in Korea, I talked with the account manager in a bar about sports, and he said he liked golf best because one will know the result until the last minute of the match.

I guess this can be best explained by the saying that he who laughs last laughs best. In the western language there is also a similar phrase: Do not count the eggs before they hatch.

   The mach is not the only arena where he who laughs last laughs best. Admit it or not, the life is also like an arena, we can be all winners or all losers, depending on our definition of success.

   When depressed, I can always get the encouraging words from my intimate friends, one of the mostly used comment is this saying “ he who laughs last laughs best”.

    So thanks, my dear friends, Candy, Tina and Tang.

I have been conceiving this article for a really long time since the beginning of this month.

10 days ago, I paid the real estate dealer all the money and got the key to my apartment.

I hope this is not only a key to an apartment, I also hope this can be the key to the happiness, even though I have to pay back more than 400,000 yuan’s debt..

  One of my favorite athletes is Zhang Ning, the famous badminton player.

I always hope she can win the game, and she is kind of miracle, because players of her age have already left the court, but she has never given up her badminton career.

   She needs efforts to fight against the sour muscles and the occupational disease; 

   She needs commitment to continue with her beloved career;

   She needs the sportsmanship to face the potential failure;

   She needs the courage to win not her rivals but also herself.

She burst into tears when she finally won the gold medal of the woman’s single badminton; I believe these are the tears of happiness. And all the endeavors finally pay off.

Recently, I am really obsessed with the song from Leon: the shape of my heart.

I like the lines, the writer is very smart, because he uses paronomasia.

Now let us see the lines, hope you like it.

 

He deals the cards as a meditation
And those he plays never suspect
He doesn't play for the money he wins
He don't play for respect
He deals the cards to find the answer
The sacred geometry of chance
The hidden law of a probable outcome
The numbers lead a dance
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
He may play the jack of diamonds
He may lay the queen of spades
He may conceal a king in his hand
While the memory of it fades
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape......the shape of my heart

And if I told you that I loved you
You'd maybe think there's something wrong
I'm not a man of too many faces
The mask I wear is one
Well, those who speak know nothin'
And find out to their cost
Like those who curse their luck in too many places
And those who fear are lost
I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier
I know that the clubs are weapons of war
I know that diamonds mean money for this art
But that's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape of my heart
That's not the shape......the shape of my heart

Recently, I have watched an old movie entitled Leon, whose Chinese translation is somewhat like This Killer is Not Cool.

One line in the movie is quite interesting but very touching, that is love is in the stomach.

Its implication is not as mundane as that it means if a woman wants to keep a man around her, she should in the first place keep his stomach around her. Quite on the contrary it has a very romantic annotation: love, like something in the stomach, can keep someone warm.

Love, in this modern but tough-minded society, is often called something luxurious. Many people are eager for it, but only few lucky ones can enjoy it.

But, love, just like the line in the movie, is in the stomach, so look for something that can keep you warm, it may not be good-looking as you have ever anticipated, it may not be attractive as you might have ever thought you could be proud of, it may not be perfect, there are some flaws here or there.

But, most importantly, it can keep you warm. That is enough.

去北京之前有很多的期待，期待之一就是想看看鸟巢和水立方，过年回来我就在网上搜索了鸟巢的照片，然后把它作为电脑的桌面，可是总觉得只看照片太不过瘾，很希望能够亲眼目睹奥运主会场的风采，更何况再有一个月左右的时间奥运会就要开幕了，既然不能亲眼看现场的奥运比赛，看看会场也好吧。

我去看鸟巢那天也是非常的有纪念意义，因为那天是鸟巢正式开放的日子。虽然还是不能很近的感受鸟巢，只能在附近的一座天桥上看看，可是看到那富有特色的钢筋结构，看到它雄伟的气势，早已让我心潮澎湃，一股民族自豪感悠然而生。 今年发生了太多考验中国人民的事情，衷心地希望我们的祖国越来越强大！

上一篇文章写了一些有些小资有些些虚幻的生活，这次写写一些真实的生活吧， 换一个实际的话题-奋斗。

一想到奋斗在北京，可能最先联想到的词就是北漂，这个词真的很形象，不知道是谁第一个发明了这个词，一提到这个词我就觉得觉得眼前出现了一个个的浮萍，因为他们没有根，走哪算哪，很多北漂一族想必也是这样吧，在北京没有亲戚，没有归属，没有户口，可是为了自己的理想，依然在北京只身打拼。

这次去了北京见到一个读书时代的好朋友，他现在可以很从容的讲述他刚到北京时的窘迫与不堪，从容的放佛他是在讲得是一个陌生人的故事，可是听上去真的有些心酸，还好，他现在结婚了，而且夫妻两个都有了多少人梦寐以求的北京户口，也算是修成正果。

在北京还见了另一个朋友，她的经历有些传奇，毕业后一直在国外工作，后来又回到北京，她现在也不知道下一站在哪， 那就姑且叫她下一站天后吧。

在北京的时间太短，朋友太多，没有时间一一见面，这些朋友中，有的在新东方教英语，在国内小有名气，还有的在清华读博士后，实现自己的学术理想，还有一个北师大硕士毕业回新疆教了一年书，觉得没有意思又在北大读博的同学，还有太多的朋友……也许每个人的经历都是一部奋斗史，祝福这些有梦的人梦想成真。

有一句话叫做假话说多了也就成了真话。好几个同事都说我很小资，我也不知道什么叫做小资，如果说小资就是追求享受，那我可算不上，可是如果说小资是比较注重生活的品质，我倒是有一些，不管怎么样，我也不知道我做了什么很奢华的事，周围不少的人都说我很小资，既然他们都这样说了，那我就小资一把吧。

小资之旅是从CIAO咖啡店开始的，这家店的装修很简单，虽然CIAO是北欧的牌子，但是装修的风格却十分的简约，完全看不出北欧的影子，但是我却很喜欢里面的布艺沙发的颜色，是那种很清爽干净的翠绿。坐在临窗的位子，手里端着香浓的卡布奇诺，正好缓解一下行走一天的疲惫。

小资的第二站是一个名叫Lotus Thai的泰国餐馆，里面的装修事典型的东南亚风格，进门的地方还有一个镀金的大象，充满的异域风情。菜的味道也不错，有一股很重的香料的味道。

小资的第三站是后海的酒吧，后海的名字早就从朋友的口中听到了无数次，真正到了后海果真觉得名不虚传。

曾经去过了欧洲的小酒吧，也去过长沙的酒吧，去过阳朔的酒吧，最喜欢的还是后海的酒吧。

喜欢那边远远不能称做海的小湖泊，因为仿佛有了水，酒吧也多了几分灵动，酒吧灯光的亮度打的正好，不是那种昏暗的暧昧，也不是明亮的炙热，一切就是这么的恰到好处，亮一分，暗一分则都没有了情调。

最妙的是我去的那天下着雨，听着酒吧驻唱歌手的低声浅唱，再配合着窗外的雨声，真是妙不可言。

我点的鸡尾酒也是一抹亮色，酒的名字叫sunrise of Mexico，点的时候并不知道为什么会叫这个名字，只是觉得很有意境。酒端上来，觉得设计的很巧妙，红色的液体不正象征这墨西哥的热情嘛，杯中插了一个荧光棒，仿佛一个初升的太阳。

小资的第四个目的地是星巴克。 这个是知名的牌子，无需多说，最喜欢是里面的墙纸，绝对的小资。

北京的小资之行有些残缺，没有看到话剧，没有去三里屯的酒吧，还没有听演唱会，还有太多没有去感受的地方。  

将美好的记忆留给自己；

将残缺的期待留给下次。